As the sun sets on my face, My thoughts run to the clouds aboveAnd for a moment utmost disgraceFor I had forgotten how to loveThe realization was suddenQuick, like deathAs I lit a cigaretteAnd my soul took a breathSquinting eyes over blue horizon skiesMade me wonder of all the liesYou’ve ever told me.Each one I swallowed like a sip of vodkaBurning a hole where my heart should beThe heart you took with you, the day I told you to leaveThe month after crying so hard I could barely breathe. Stockholm syndromeI was inlove with a monsterMonster who made me believe I was nothing more and nothing lessCatch 22 , I believed I was blessed And here I am today with scars on my legsAnd scars on my wristsFrom the day I wish I could cease to exist While you’re doing great and I’m... fine I’ll remember your voice and how you called me mine. And I hope someday your memory will fade As I hope my happiness will be homemade.